My Life Before My Life © by VLR

It's been awhile. I've been focusing on completing my book, but my thoughts have never strayed to far from here. From you. The holidays are upon us and it's such a bittersweet time. I miss many things, but instead of thinking about lack, I take a moment each day to focus on the abundance of things I do have....
Love steps to us in many ways. Sometimes, it's so unexpected that it catches you off guard. In truth though, the package that it comes in - or that it comes at all - may be unexpected, but if you are truly preparing yourself for love, it's always right on time and expected. And when it's good love, true love built especially for you, it's as if everything you've experienced prior has no meaning. Only the here and now matter.....

What of my life before you?
It's as if there was nothing prior
Because all I feel is you and these moments we share
All I feel is you
My life feels complete somehow now
Perhaps everything before now
Was for now
That I was being readied for just this time
When I would meet you
Unexpectedly
You feel - familiar, safe and good for me
You feel like you belong
~In my life
~In my heart
And yet, I don't really know you
But it feels like I do
It's as if our souls know one another
And now our flesh is set to confirm what has already been confirmed in another realm
The spiritual realm
Strange
How I miss your physical presence
And I haven't experienced your physical presence
I miss you from the moment we hang up, until the time we connect yet again
My body yearns for you
I want to practice making babies with you
I want to grow old and live out my future with you!
How is it I miss someone I don't fully know?
Yet somehow, I know you
My spirit knows your spirit
What of my life before you?
There wasn't anything prior
Not like the love I have for you at this moment in time
I suppose that question really doesn't matter
Because for once, I'm going to get outside my head and allow my heart center stage
I'm not going to think this too far through
But trust my instincts and allow myself to take this walk with you
I'm going to follow what my spirit is affirming for me
I'm going to let go and drop off into the abyss of love
And allow myself to fall completely in love with you
My life before you was just a dress rehearsal
The real thing has stepped in unexpectedly
Yet my spirit expected it
I am ready
Ready for your love
For you are the life I freely choose to live now
And nothing else matters but you....