Bitterness©

Childhood memories. I'm always amazed at the little things we remember from long ago. I can remember very early in my life when my Mom used to say all men are no good. It was like a mantra for many years. Being the hopeless romantic that I am, I always tried to tune it out. I've had many friends share a similar lament. But I've always maintained hope. Even during bad times, when I've encountered lying and cheating lovers, I've always managed to work to continue to keep my hope. And for one very good reason - I don't want to be that woman - the Bitter Woman. We've seen her. Seriously, maybe you've even been her. She has a chip on her shoulder and appears to be angry at the world. She's been hurt by a man or many men. And with each jaded experience, she adds yet another rock to her bag. And her bag is heavy. It casts a cloud over her entire being. It follows her in everything she does. She can't enjoy a new man or experience because she's convinced that this one will only end up like the last, and maybe even worse. She wouldn't - couldn't recognize a good man because she's been so harmed by others in her past. Her eyes, heart and sense of judgement are all lost. She finds no enjoyment in anything. Pain is her bestfriend. But there's a reason that she's bitter, and whether it's right or wrong, she's still someone who deserves love - needs and wants love. Truly she does. I don't want to ever be that woman.....

I don't want to be that woman
I've seen her many times
we've all seen her around
scowling across a crowded room
frowning at every man that passes by
angry at the world
She's Bitter
Over lost loves
frustrations
bad dates
Men who say they love her
but really don't
who don't show or call
aren't people of their word
lying
cheating
just being human with all their flaws
All they do is take
Her body, her love, money, her time
Things that seem so small ~ to him
But are actually treasures ~ to her
They didn't see
Or maybe, they just didn't care
It wears her down
Like water drifting across a rock
The rock intially stands tall, sure
But over time
It's worn thin by the water
Bit by tiny bit
Like the fragments of her heart
Each piece that they take
So, so small
But it's still a piece
She's bitter
Most people turn in the other direction
don't want to be taken in by all the pain and anger
But look closely
Look deep into her eyes
~ There
You can see the pain
The pain she chooses to hide
She shields it with
Anger
Bitterness
Hurt
Fear
When you see her
Don't ignore her
Step to her, and get to know her
There's a beautiful woman locked way down deep inside
Trapped
By all the pain
But your love can heal it all
It's possible
If you're willing to give it a try
But for me
I will always try to remain hopeful
Because I don't want to be that woman
Bitter
Just a ghost of love's pain
Caught up in love's past....