My Heart©

When I write here, I often wonder if there's anyone out there - is this truly worth doing - and most importantly, why do I do this? A blog is a lonely place. But I decided to put myself and my poetic thoughts out there. When I write, I'll sometimes go days without writing anything, and then there will be days when I write poem after poem. There are so many that I have yet to post here. Each time I think I'm done, I'm full again and must pour it out on paper.
Last week, as I was working on another piece, I realized that I was meant to do this. I thought initially, that this was only a form of cleansing for me, and it has been, but I realized that I am here to stand in the gap for someone else out there who needs this - needs to see my joy, pain, longing - all of it. And from that realization, this poem was created....

Listening carefully
to the rythm of my heart
it beats so powerfully
I press my hand to it as my pen flows
I embrace what I'm feeling
I move to press my hand to my head now to supress
the tears that lurk inside
force a smile and remember a better time
because I need to write
I am lonely
I feel it so deeply in my heart
My spirit ~ my soul wasn't designed for this
I am meant to love
to be loved
loving
loved on
But there's a reason for this, and every stage in my journey
And so I write
I write to quell the pain
I write to dream
I write to cleanse
to feel the void
to ease the pain I feel inside
to share the joy
I feel so free when I'm here
~pen in hand
~blank pages of paper ahead of me
My heart beats truer - stronger
the vibrations of my heart
my spirit
flow like the blue ink
that fill page upon page
What my heart feels
my pen reveals
I strip bare
stand naked
show everything
And each time I'm here
I ask myself why
Why was I blessed with this gift?
Why do I spill my heart in this way?
show all my insides?
raw, unfiltered
no chasers here
I am what I am and this is what it is
I ask why
And as I write, the spirit says
You write to stand in the gap
for someone else's pain
for someone else's joy
for someone else's longing
You are their lifeline
I am an open vessel
I hold no secrets inside
My heart is stripped bare
Listening carefully
to the rythm of my beating heart
I am here
open
Take what you need
there's more inside....