New Year - New You?

Happy New Year everyone! I wish an abundance of joy and love for each of us. Here were my thoughts as I quietly rang the New Year in...

When you do the work of
going through the grief
exploring your past
accepting that you - and others, are not perfect
when you have accepted that you have made mistakes, and will make many more
when you can forgive - forgive - forgive ~ yourself and others
when you have finally faced your fears and insecurities
or at least acknowledge them
when have allowed yourself to let go of your ego
And when you can once and for all, love yourself as is
Then, then you are ready for love again
I am ready

2009 was about learning for me. I had to go through it, to get to it. What is it? Me, myself and I. I was living a life where I wanted to be anyone else but me - taller, shorter, thinner, heavier, lighter, richer, darker - and always with bigger breasts! But each time I looked in the mirror, the same Valerie was starring back. Yes, the hips expanded after babies and age, but I was always the same person. I wanted to be perfect. The perfect daughter, sister, cousin, aunt, student, employee, wife and mother.

But I discovered one day that I wasn't perfect. All I had was me, as is. With a warranty only guaranteed by God. And if God made me, surely I must be okay. With that realization came change. And with change came turmoil. Surely if I have this kind of clarity the devil had to step in and cause some mess. And that he did. But in the midst of all this, I found salvation in writing. And I did quite a bit. These postings are just a snapshot of what I've written.

Through it all, I learned to love and trust me. I am a better woman today, and it's all because I spent some time with me. When is the last time you've taken that time? I needed to be what I desired. And I needed to create what I wanted clearly in my mind. All that came from writing.

It's a New Year. It's time to create a New You to go along with it. Take the time. It's so worth it. I promise you. I dare you!

PoeticV