Love's Game

I've been gone for awhile. So many things have happened. Recently, I made a major decision and relocated to the east coast. I've been a Cali girl all my life, and wanted a change. I'm sure that this will expand my writings in ways that I could never imagine.

And with all this change, I had considered taking my blog down. It's not that I don't have anything to say, but more like, what do I want to say? Just as my life is headed in a new direction, pehaps it's simply time for a new direction here as well. I'll give it more thought, and perhaps make a formal format announcement for the New Year. Or maybe I'll simply continue in this same vein.....to be continued....

In the meantime, let's continue in the way I normally do things....

I Miss you
Miss the connection I feel for you
Miss our long talks late into the night
Miss the shared laughter
I feel you slowly slipping away
And there's nothing I can do or say
To change the vibe that's here
Because you don't belong to me
I am just your friend
That's the divide between us
Even though there's more between us
Unspoken, yet it clings to air
Love's Game
I have to watch as you grow closer to another
A thousand times inside I die
Because the you and I that I desire can never be
Because I can never be all that I feel for you
In your eyes, you don't see me
You don't see my love
You are not in love with me
Love's Game
You're not in love with me
And so I sit here
And try to act the same
I try
But it's not the same for me
Things for me shifted
I am in love with you
And you only love me
I'm your friend
Just
Your friend
Love's Game
So I lay here
Alone
Clinging to a pillow
Wishing it were you
While you are with someone else
This is my reality
The sum of all my realities
So I squeeze my pillow tight
And I let you go
This is not a fairy tale
I let you go
You are not prince charming
You are not going to come and rescue me
You are not going to walk on my job and sweep me off my feet
You are not going to ride up in a limo and take me away
You are not in love with me
This game is over
And sometimes in love's game, nice girls simply don't win