I Am Healing©

While in the mourning process in dealing with a lost love, you often feel as if it's never going to get better; that you will never stop crying, thinking or talking about him or her. Some days, all you want to do is talk about what went wrong, and how bad you feel, and other days you are pretty sure your friends are tired of hearing the same things and the same story over and over. And just when you think you are not going to make it another minute without your love, things somehow get better. The pieces of your heart looked as if they would never go back together, yet somehow they do. Of course it takes time and things are different. You are changed. After all, this is really your heart, not a puzzle. And you are human. The point is that the hurting does stop eventually. And you should talk about it, and cry about it to cleanse yourself. But one day, you'll look at yourself and realize that it's over. You are complete. You are healed....


I mourn the loss of love
my heart has been shattered in a million pieces
I pick up each piece
and place them in a box
and patiently put it together
through tears
laughter
friends
sleep
I am healing
the passage of time makes things easier
I mend slowly
gently weaving it all together
the tiny pieces of me
through warm bubble baths
glass after glass of wine
writing out the feelings
getting to know me again
I am healing
slowly, I feel a sense of renewal
rebirth
recovery
renewed purpose
although my heart doesn't look the same
feel the same
beat the same
it is somehow stronger
I am still here
I am healing
it is not a simple journey
the road is bumpy
and crazy
the pieces don't always make sense
you will make mistakes
you will feel sorry for yourself
you will not want to go on
but it gets better
so much better
I am healing
and then one day
one day
you look at yourself
and you know
beyond all the hurt and sorrow
you know
beyond the regret and sadness
you know
finally you know
You
Are
Healed....