The Beginning

My journey into the world of poetry came unexpectedly. I was going through the emotional self torture of a a very bad break-up, with all it's physical and emotional strife. I felt like I wass in a nightmare that would never end. I would cry endlessly, along with all the classic things you do when you are hurting. One day at lunch, a friend unexpectedly shared with some things to do to get through the phase, including the suggestion that I start a journal. I was willing to do anything, and so I got out a beautiful pen and journal to write. Well, I sat staring at the empty pages for days. I think I wrote in it twice. Each time I would sit with pen in hand, nothing seemed to come to mind. The lightbulb moment came one day while I was preparing to write an email to a friend. My mind had been racing for many days on end with a single thought, and on this day I so full emotionally that I felt compelled to say something in words to express what I was feeling. Once I typed that single word, it was as if the floodgates were opened, and the words began to fly across the page. When I was done, I was amazed at what was written, but more importantly, I felt better. The writing has been been such a cleansing for me, and from it I have been thoroughly renewed in spirit. I decided to share the experiences in a blog because I had several women and men who had read my writings share with me how inspired they were by them. Of course that was interesting, but not compelling enough. However, the main thing that began to emerge from everyone was that the writings needed to be shared with others. So I'm using this format to share. What you will see here are the many ups and downs of love. I write about the good times, the beginnings of a new love and the way he or she touches you, makes love to you and loves you. I will express the pain of love gone bad, and all the things we do to rid ourselves of that pain, including going back for a second dose of the bad sometimes. I share what that pain and misery feels like to our hearts, andthe longing we experience for love that has been lost, and love that is come. And finally, I write about rising from the mourning, self loathing and misery. The ending is actually what I feel is the beginning, because we have the opportunity to start a new love chapter. This is not an easy process, but it's worth it. We get to redefine who we are, and what we really want in our lives and love. You are strengthened to love again. I will not share with you ways to man or woman hate. The world teaches us enough of that. No, I believe in accepting personal responsibility for our story lines in the chapters that were written in a previous story, even if they were minor lines. This is a journey about embracing what you are feeling, learning lessons and moving on with hope.Some relationships will take you through the cycle all over again. But that's okay because now you will have a poetic road map to get you through the cycle and right back on track. Love is fun, beautiful, ugly, painful, wonderful and all the many other colorful words you can think of...but it's a wonderful journey. Love is a portrait of joy and pain.....know that you are not alone....