Pain©

I wrote "Pain" during a very difficult time in my life. It was a time when I was actually experiencing a very bad break up. I truly felt at that time that my heart had been broken in a million pieces, and I didn't think I would ever recover. It's still something I am healing from. It was actually this situation that sparked my writing in the first place. I had been crying and hurting for days. I would sit and stare out my window, or blankly watch television. Nothing seemed to help, until I decided to simply embrace what I was feeling, and put it into words. The words were what I was feeling. I did not sit and think about what I was going to say that day. I just let it pour from my heart. It truly felt like my heart was bleeding as I typed each line of the poem. So what you will read here is raw, but real.

A letter falls softly to the floor
It tells of a lover gone away
I watch the light flicker
And dance across my room
As I sit embraced by silence
This is my pain
I sit amongst the aftermath of another love war
A battle that I have lost
I am deeply wounded with cuts
Cuts that run so deep
Wounded by my lost love
This is my pain
The bleeding I can't control
The wounds are far too many
wounds from
anger and hurt
frustration and disappointments
This is my pain
With age comes wisdom
But with pain comes
~ pain
The blood flows from my heart
spills onto my skin
This is my pain
I left myself exposed to you
Exposed to the love I felt for you
I let down my guard for you
But love and loving was not enough
And now comes the pain
This is my pain
I wrap myself in it
Nest in a cocoon of it
Drink to feel the taste of it
Embrace it like a long lost friend
My blood now flows onto the floor
This is my pain
And now my tears began to fall
Washing over the whole of me
Washing the pain and blood from me
Working to renew and restore me
I feel revived
This
was
my
pain